I was diagnosed with Schizophrenia, a long time ago now...
When I got a day out, I went to the computer in the library, as an intense romantic thought, to write a diary about my world.
I lived in a different world, to others around me, like family, family became less in the 5th world of hallucinations, so that the 5th world was the only world.
Now, thats funny, because as GRAVITY-GREY is full of fantastical things, you may not realise that the most otherworldy events inside it, are REAL to me, real auto-biographical life...
Now the romance belittled the development of this book for three months, as I sat and stared at the romance in saved files, and did not want to edit them, did not want to keep writing love-letters, leaving the book while thinking I was writing the book,but unable to write a paragraph even, cos the love, was in Eugene (PAGE 88) and the invisible...so I have a few pieces of an old diary inside GRAVITY-GREY...
Yes, GRAVITY-GREY is essentially a ROMANCE.
Then, I wanted to tell the lover.
Even though ...
the modern day typewriter is a perfect way to write, letting you write the middle first, deleting, cutting and pasting...giving you a power over the old genuis, who knowing ink can run out, has to be able to write a page as complete as possible without scratching it away with red pen...
I decided to explain to her.
I began; In those small (because I am small) months I had a terrible fear of flying...
(I was always flying)
I wrote down other lovers, you see, because Jay doesn't have a completeness, and then, you find out EUGENE has even less of a completeness when it involves Love.
I had to hide the lover because she couldnt be Eugenie and Eugene couldn't be her.
So, I left that part of love, and the rest became anger. I wrote down an anger against the TV< the babylon< Monster, the televisual death that brings the Woman Monster. Some things real...
When I got a day out, I went to the computer in the library, as an intense romantic thought, to write a diary about my world.
I lived in a different world, to others around me, like family, family became less in the 5th world of hallucinations, so that the 5th world was the only world.
Now, thats funny, because as GRAVITY-GREY is full of fantastical things, you may not realise that the most otherworldy events inside it, are REAL to me, real auto-biographical life...
Now the romance belittled the development of this book for three months, as I sat and stared at the romance in saved files, and did not want to edit them, did not want to keep writing love-letters, leaving the book while thinking I was writing the book,but unable to write a paragraph even, cos the love, was in Eugene (PAGE 88) and the invisible...so I have a few pieces of an old diary inside GRAVITY-GREY...
Yes, GRAVITY-GREY is essentially a ROMANCE.
Then, I wanted to tell the lover.
Even though ...
the modern day typewriter is a perfect way to write, letting you write the middle first, deleting, cutting and pasting...giving you a power over the old genuis, who knowing ink can run out, has to be able to write a page as complete as possible without scratching it away with red pen...
I decided to explain to her.
I began; In those small (because I am small) months I had a terrible fear of flying...
(I was always flying)
I wrote down other lovers, you see, because Jay doesn't have a completeness, and then, you find out EUGENE has even less of a completeness when it involves Love.
I had to hide the lover because she couldnt be Eugenie and Eugene couldn't be her.
So, I left that part of love, and the rest became anger. I wrote down an anger against the TV< the babylon< Monster, the televisual death that brings the Woman Monster. Some things real...
No comments:
Post a Comment